Wow. One wisdom tooth. It wonked me harder than I thought it would. Not pain or discomfort or bleeding, because that mostly got better in the first day or two, although my socket does get achy toward the end of the day.
But I have been so tired. I’m finding it hard to decide if it’s left over tiredness from the anesthesia, the Vicodin, and my recovery or if it’s just my regular tiredness that I finally have an excuse to indulge. I am currently so run down that finding a half hour or an hour to nap during the day no longer seems optional, but imperative.
Quinn has really been enjoying sitting on me and watching an episode of The Wonder Pets followed by an episode of Max and Ruby every afternoon while I lay down and rest. I’m not sure that’s normal. (The daily napping—I’m pretty sure toddler-love of The Wonder Pets and Max and Ruby is normal.)
I was so wearied this afternoon that I completely lost my cool with my kids—especially Jack, who chose today to not just be defiant about his homework, but to express his defiance about his homework. “Nothing can make me do my homework,” he repeated over and over.
See, he had to write sentences, and he doesn’t like to write sentences. If I had been more available, I might have tried to find a root of that. As it was, I ended up with my head in my hands and Jack ended up with tears streaking down his face as we sat at the table with unfinished homework in front of him.
Alex had planned to stay at work until late tonight to catch up on some work. But he came home and fed the little dudes the dinner that I made while I crammed in a quick nap. That hour I spent unconscious on the couch while he fed, bathed, and put the guys to bed saved me for all the work I have to do tonight—work I fell behind on while I was sleeping all weekend. Alex saved Team Stimey tonight, that’s for sure.
I’ll pull my shit together. I always do. But all I really have to say is that I am really looking forward to the day that all of my kids are in all-day school. I’m really looking forward to doing my work (and my napping) during the day, so I can be less run down after school and in the evening when they need me.
I also think it will be good for me and Alex. At night now he watches TV and the back of my head as I work away on the computer across the room. I’m looking forward to spending my evenings with him.
That day, when all of my kids are in school all day, is a long way away. Quinn won’t go to kindergarten until fall of 2010. I know I’ll still be busy then, and that all-day school is not the complete answer to my work at home mom/full-time stay at home mom problems. But I think it’s going to help.
I’m not sure where I was going with this long, rambling post that started in one place and ended up in another. I think it just kind of needed to come out. And mostly it’s a long way of saying that it’s hard to fit everything in, isn’t it?