Saturday, September 26, 2009

Just Some Ordinary, Run-of-the-Mill Navel Gazing

I'm sure you were all on the edge of your seats last week fruitlessly waiting for me to write something, anything. You were, right? It's okay. I understand if you were all okay with having a little respite from my epic (read: loooooooong) posts.

I didn't have much to say and I was feeling a little all over the place, just sort of blah. No reason. But I just wasn't inspired.

See?


And if twitter says it's so, it must be true.

I often spend time when I should be working procrastinating by blogging. And if I've already blogged, I'll procrastinate by tweeting. But I couldn't even do that last week.


I kept trying to think of things to write about, but everything seemed forced and not funny or heartfelt. But the days kept going and Stimeyland was empty and the last thing I wrote was all about how I suck. And it was just right there at the top of the page: Stimey, you fucking suck.

I was still writing at AutMont, my new SUPER AWESOME MOST IMPORTANT SITE EVER IF YOU LIVE IN MONTGOMERY COUNTY AND ARE INTERESTED IN AUTISM GO THERE RIGHT NOW AND JOIN MY 13 RSS SUBSCRIBERS PLEASE! and also at the Junk Pyramid, but Stimeyland just wasn't coming to me.

Then, yesterday, I decided that I had to write something, so I picked some obvious blog fodder, Quinn and my trip to the apple orchard, and I started writing.

And, damn it felt good.

I'm not saying it's the best post I ever wrote, but writing it and editing it and making it the way I wanted felt awesome. It reminded me of something else I tweeted a while back in response to a question @Neilochka asked:


See, the community I have here online is tangible to me. I feel it every day and it lifts me, carries me, and helps me. Every. Single. Day. But sometimes I forget about the self-expression. And that's kind of what I rediscovered yesterday.

Somehow, after blogging almost daily for two and a half years, it is in my blood. I need to write. I love to write. I crave the feeling of putting sentences together to make people laugh, to tell you guys about my feelings, or just to put words around photos that will make my mom and my sister smile.

It feels a little weird sometimes to be so obsessed with my blog (and some of them that I read), but at the end of the day, I have a community and I get to express myself creatively to people—actual people who want to read my words.

I think that's pretty cool.

11 comments:

  1. Yay for the return of Stimeyland! (I need it to procrastinate...)

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  2. Every time I think about stopping blogging I think about leaving my friends. And that is what keeps me going.

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  3. I love your words. I love our community. I love that fact that I am one of at least four people that I can name who have barely touched their blogs during the month of September. Whenever I feel a certain way, I know there's at least a handful of women/people/bloggers out there who. get. it.

    I never tire of your words and pictures.

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  4. when we met 18 years ago you told me you were going to be a reporter. i think of your blog as your syndicated, self-published column. there's good writing, you've got a loyal following, ellen goodman has nothing on you. so as far as i can tell you already knew back then what you were going to do, you just might not have known quite what it was going to look like.

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  5. Maybe you will inspire me to look for my own lost writing mojo?

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  6. I love being part of your community. I've had a hard time sitting down to write lately. When I do - it makes me really happy, but I never feel like I have the time when I'm feeling inspired. So many great ideas lost in the swiss cheese holes of my short term memory...

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  7. Even when I almost HAVE my writing mojo - it's not as good as when you don't. :)

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  8. That is a point that most people are motivated on writing. Not just filling out empty spaces but expressing what you feel and expressing your opinions. Others may contradict or react but it gives more life to it when they react.

    Good point of view!

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  9. Great nonpost! oh the will to blog eludes me often....

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  10. that is pretty cool-
    I don't even know how to direct tweet someome yet...

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